Giving up

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 21:57:27 +0100

Do I belive in destiny do I believe in Fate ? Do we all have paths set for us or do we create our own by the choices we make.
Whatever happens does it happen for a reason ?
The reason for these thoughts is that my 5 year relationship ended.
You never know how much you love someone until they go away and then you spend the rest of you time wishing they had not.
I do not doubt for one minute that there are people out there in a far worse situation than me and I will not be the 1st or last person to have his heart broke, but as like everyone before me this girl made me happy every day I was with her.She was not just my girlfriend she was my best friend to.
Now all I am left with is memories of my relationship and although I am glad I had those times they haunt my dreams and as each day passes I realise she is not coming back an a little bit of my dies.She really did complete me.
At the moment I live in a nightmare but if I give up on this nightmare I also give up on my dream, my dream of being with her.
If you do not have your dreams what else do you have ? if you give up on that then it does not really leave much to aspire too.
Do not get me wrong I am not looking at the realtionship with rose tinted glasses but I really believd we had something and once upon a time so did she.We had our up's and down's but we always came through.
Now I ask you to I give up on my dream do I let go ? Or do I have faith and belief that it will all come good in the end.If I give up on her am I giving up on myself ? Will things turn out for the best or as every day passes will my world become a colder place.

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